So, it's been a year..

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Here's just some random thoughts..
- Time certainly does heal. I wouldn't have believed it 6 months ago - or even just 3 months ago.
- Good memories are now happy ones. We won't discuss the others.
- I can talk about Donna without getting emotional.
- I miss her cooking, although my waistline doesn't. I don't care how "good" a microwave meal is, they're all starting to taste the same.
- Dating really sucks. I keep having people tell me they would love to hang out, and then get stood up. Online dating? Fahgettaboutit!!
- I still sleep on my side of the bed. I miss snuggling.
- My office and workshop are still a mess. When weren't they.
- I don't miss re-runs and reality TV. I don't watch much TV anyways. It seems to be the same stuff over and over.
- I'm motivated to do things again. The yard is starting to look decent after almost 2 years of neglect. I wish the temps were cooler so I could do more outside.
- I can make decisions. The hurdle was whether or not to buy a newer vehicle for road trips. I'm now a 4 vehicle family with one driver.
- Still have the cats. They've lived here all their lives, I guess this is where they'll stay. I'm not a cat person!! *Sneezes*
- I've only "lost" a couple of plants in the sunroom. They were finicky ones anyway, and there's still plenty of others left.
- No vegetable garden this year, although I have carrots from seeds that were planted last year. Really?? I do have an awesome crop of weeds!
- It takes a year to close an estate, and hospitals are blood sucking leaches when it comes to money owed to them. Especially Greenville Hospital System.
- There's too much stuff in the house. I need to start distributing Donna's family items to her kids.. Yes, I'm finally ready.
- It's just a matter of time.

As a follow up...
I let another piece of Donna go on Thursday. I sold her car with the Elvis graphics to some close friends who really needed a clean and reliable vehicle to drive. I wanted it to go to someone who would care for and appreciate the car as much as Donna did. I think I made a good choice! Hopefully they will keep the graphics on the car.
I did cry as I watched the tail lights pull out of the driveway one last time, this time without her at the wheel..

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HomeOfBluAndshadows's avatar
hi eddie

i know what you mean by having to much stuff in the house, knowing the stuff you give to her kids and some special items you want to keep of your loved one, their is still alot of items to go through, it's hard at first, knowing you don't want to see a lot of things go, but knowing it's time to move on and letting the good memories move into your heart and her spirit to where it will stay, getting out and doing things again is always a good sign, wanting to keep your life going to keep her spirit alive=), i know when me and my mom where moved to this new house, my grandmother had so much stuff left over, we gave away so much stuff to charities, we still had a good bit left and have it out in storage, and i know what you mean by dating, it does suck, and it's not nice of them to stood you up, at least they could meet you once and just have a good time instead of getting your hopes dashed, i do have a on-line girl friend, but i don't even know when i will even get to meet her or if it will work out, but i'm just giving it a try, anyway sorry about the med, bills you are having, it so sad in a way, knowing you tryed to help out a person to keep living, but when it done for, they always want their infalted price of their share, just not fair at all, but i'm glad your doing better my, friend, i still love and care about you as my freind:hug::heart: